Friday, November 11, 2011

Ready or Not

I've done a lot of scary things in my life: I married my first true love with zero money in our pockets; I've jumped off a 15-meter water fall; I did zip lining thrice (one in Lignon Hill in Albay, one in Club Manila East, and one in an Eco Park in Misibis Bay); I almost died while surfing; and lots more. But I think walking into the bathroom this morning and taking those two pregnancy tests were the scariest of them all. My knees were literally buckling under my weight; my body was shaking; I can't breathe... it's like I am being buried alive. I never experienced anything like that before.

Then I opened the kit and read the instructions. I want to do this right so I can be sure. I went downstairs to get an empty disposable container, just like the ones people use when submitting urine specimen. I went back upstairs and locked myself for a few minutes in the master's bathroom. I tried to calm down a bit. Seconds before taking a pee, I finally knew what I wanted.

So I did it. Then I waited. It was only a few seconds of waiting but it felt like forever. Then I saw the line.

I did the same thing to another pregnancy kit. One line.


After that, I feel like I don't ever wanna have sex again. Just to be sure.

People say otherwise, but I really think we're not yet ready for this. I don't know when we'll ever be.

To know a little more about what's behind this story, please read my previous entries on my other blogs:

Misibis Bay Buffet Meals - where it all began

The Power of Friends, Exes and a Smashing Good Time

Here's a follow up blog post about the topic of pregnancy: To Be or Not To Be Pregnant

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